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Thu Sep 10, 2009, 10:16 PM
  • Mood: Uneasy
  • Listening to: The Beatles
Alright, so a lot has been happening in my life again since July (I realized this morning I wrote my last journal on what was then my monthly anniversary – would have been 3 yrs, 2 months).

So I started working in August again, and I’m still here, at the company I was supposed to temp at for a month. Well, I think I might be doing more than temping. I have a sneaking feeling I’m going to be asked to stay permanently. It’s fine, money is money, and I need it, but I actually do hate this place. I’m tired of quoting and consultant work, and the people … let’s not get me too fired up about that one. At least it’s picking up, it was very quiet towards the end of last month and the first week of September, but now we’re doing well. And as I said, work is work. I’m grateful to be able to pay my bills and feed myself.

On a sadder note, Kobus is moving the end of the month. Oh we’re back together, got back together early August, I think I started work on the Monday, Tuesday we were together. It wasn’t one of those “oh god here we go again, they’re back together, wonder how long this is going to last” sort of things, serious getting back together thing. He’s taken a job in Burgersfort (it’s a mining town, very one horse town-like and that horse is dying, slowly, of dehydration. Apparently it’s hot as hell there). He’s taken a job running a guesthouse there. If it goes well, I’ll be moving up there eventually but not for about 6 months. My CV is ruined from the one month stint at the lodge, so I need some stability. I’m dreading living alone. I’m seriously considering getting a puppy but my mom is bucking that idea a little bit. She feels that my cat is too old to adjust, whereas I disagree. I think if she gives the puppy a few smacks and sees she’s taught it who’s boss, it’ll be fine. I just want something to keep me busy. I adore my cat, but she’s 9 now. She doesn’t play anymore. I don’t deny I feel that I’m going to need something or someone to keep me busy. I’m very scared of living alone, I am used to constant attention, or at least constant company. I’m not worried about the financial aspect of it, that’ll be okay … at least my baby gets to come home once a month for a few days. And I’ll be able to spend weekends with my mom.

Argh I dunno. Back to work I guess!

:peace:

Update

Journal Entry: Wed Jul 22, 2009, 11:46 PM
  • Mood: Uneasy
  • Listening to: Megan MacCauley
hello my pretties!

just an update on my life ... i have been back in town two weeks now. i lost my job at the lodge, reason given was i wasn't "grasping the concept". i do have a case of unfair dismissal out against them, but we'll have to see how that one goes. it has definitely screwed up my life somewhat not to mention my cv.

kobus and i have broken up, even though i'm still living with him. this house is choas, with his sister and her girlfriend living with us. the girlfriend has threatened the sister with murder and her own suicide if she were to leave her. we packed her bags last night, and i was up from about 2am to 4am this morning listening to them discuss the break up just in case this nutjob got violent. she should be packing the rest of her stuff today and out of our lives in a few days. i can only hope. she has caused such chaos in our lives. she basically drove me from my home 2 months ago, the sister has changed so very much, as has kobus, all under her influence. hopefully a lot of things can go back to normal once she is gone.

i don't hold much hope that kobus and i will get back together, or even be friends when i move out after i've found a job. too much has been said and done, we have too much history. that's okay though. i'm over it, i'm over him. don't get me wrong, i haven't just put 3 years of love and happiness behind me and forgotten how much i care about him, i love him dearly and probably will for a very long time, but this is for the best. in the month i was gone he changed so much, he started going out, he bought a hubbly... something i didn't even know held any any interest for him, and he's made friends who he won't even tell me the names of or introduce me to. he has made his choice, that we should be friends, that's all he can offer. i can't offer the same. i'm either his girlfriend or i'm out of his life.

on a more positive note, the company i left to go to the bush have approached me. the owner's wife is also in travel and is starting a new mozambique travel company and they want me to set it up and run it. so i should know what's happening there in a few days. i will have to move to nelspruit, finding a lift club between white river and nelspruit is a bit of mission. or maybe i should stay here, buy myself a little scooter. i don't know, i'm too scared to count my eggs right now, let alone my chickens. it took me two days to send off an acceptance email to these people - my last 2 life changing decisions have not treated me well as you can imagine.

well that's all for me, if i ramble anymore i might just annoy someone or something.

peace out guys :peace:

So long, farewell, auf wiedersehen, goodbye

Journal Entry: Sat May 23, 2009, 10:57 PM
  • Mood: Anxious
  • Listening to: Does it Offend You, Yeah
  • Eating: Pretzels
  • Drinking: Strawberry Soda Stream
Alright ladies and gentelbugs, here’s the story: I won’t be on DA much, if ever from now on. I am starting in a week’s time at Lukimbi Safari Lodge as their new front office manager and housekeeping supervisor (and as anyone in the hospitality industry knows, that means I’ll be running all day). My working hours are dusk til dawn and beyond, 7 days a week for 42 days straight. I then get to come home for 2 weeks break. Yes, this is grueling. This does however mean that while I live in the bush, I might not get time for photography, and I seriously doubt I’ll have time for DA. This is sad, yes, but it’s a career move I feel I need to make.

So that translates into this: don’t be offended if suddenly I’m not commenting you anymore, or replying anymore. I just don’t have time.

So that’s it. I’m leaving, 3rd of June I’ll be off in the bush. Wish me luck.

8 Simple Rules

Journal Entry: Sun May 3, 2009, 1:07 AM
  • Mood: Irritated
  • Listening to: Eric Clapton
  • Eating: Nothing, I'm starved though, I should eat
  • Drinking: Soda Stream by the gallons
... For Being A Guest in My Home

Hi all :)

I have recently had a spate of house guests in my home, some nice to have around, others very much not so. However, I have noticed a few things that really really piss me off.

:bulletred: 1. No mxit (for those of you overseas, mxit is like msn mobile, only more annoying and accessible to anyone with a cellphone number). You do not come into my house, as my guest and mxit. If you feel that you can not go without mxit for the 24 hours or so that you are here, stay away. In the same line as that, no non stop texts. I do not appreciate the picture on my television hopping. Yes, I can accept that everyone gets texts, but come on. If you feel the need to text nonstop, you have two options: you can do it outside, be it rain or shine, or stay away.
:bulletred: 2. You will tidy up behind you. No matter how much I say “leave it! Don’t worry I’ll do it in the morning”. That is irrelevant and nothing more than a test to ensure you are worthy of being a guest in my house.
:bulletred: 3. If I have rented a movie, that means I want to watch it. Chatting is not for movies. I do appreciate you opinions on films and what they represent but that is what the end credits are for. If we are watching something on TV, then that is what commercial breaks are for.
:bulletred: 4. You will mind your manners in my home. I do not care if you are family, you do not break wind in my house and pretend it’s a joke. I do not care how well you know me. This is my house, and you will behave as I dictate. Again, if you can not abide by this, please direct yourself to the exit.
:bulletred: 5. You don’t like my food, fuck off.
:bulletred: 6. Continuing where point 1 left off, cellphone calls are to be taken outside. I am not interested in your love life, or if your mommy loves you. You may physically answer your phone indoors as you make your way to the nearest exit. This is not me being difficult; this is etiquette that should be followed by all of those living in the modern world.
:bulletred: 7. Now you might think this is a strange one, but you will not believe how hard this is for some people: you will say please and thank you! It’s not hard.
:bulletred: 8. Last but not least, I sleep early and wake up early. You will not change this. If you find me washing dishes at 8am on a Sunday an inconvenience, just remember one thing – you are an inconvenience to me, so don’t complain. If you feel the need to sleep late, past 8am or sometimes even 7am, please check into the nearest hotel. If you somehow manage to stay asleep during my kitchen cleaning, by 9am you will be blessed with the wonderful sounds of my vacuum cleaner.

The Times, They Are A'Changing

Journal Entry: Sun Mar 1, 2009, 6:48 AM
  • Mood: Longing
  • Listening to: Eric Clapton




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It’s funny how things change.
This isn’t a huge commentary on life, just more how things are different.

My boyfriend and I met over the commonality of the emo genre. Now, 3 years later, you could ask me if I listen to emo and my most common reaction would be “hell no”. Don’t get me wrong, I can still see why I loved the music from that genre, but I’ve moved on. Also, after having a look at my last.fm neighbours, I wasn’t too pleased too see the majority of them are all teens. (Note that I last used my last.fm in May 2008). That in mind, I decided to broaden my musical horizons. I have found a love for all things electro, or electroish. I have also found a great love for all things British, female and vocal (the likes of Kate Nash, Lily Allen, Amy Winehouse).

But the point of this is more, when you look back and think of those “tried and tested” songs and bands; it’s a little different for everyone. Even when my boyfriend and I just started out, and we both loved the same things, our tried and tested loves were like chalk and cheese. Kobus, he’d go for 80s music: rock, or pop. I would go for the things I listened to when I was a kid, listening to music with my dad: blues, easy listening, things like Eric Clapton, JJ Cale, Joe Cocker, Leonard Cohen. Those are my tried and tested. And The Beatles (second to none the greatest band of all time).

Now that I’ve said my say, I don’t actually have anything to point out; there is no real point to this. This is merely a ramble.

Loves xoxox


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